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I can’t keep this feelings anymore… he needs to know.

You said the past is the past. I know its the past, but some how i still miss it. Like when i’m alone at my room which is majority of the time i always tend to look back and tell myself Wow, that was the good relationship i ever had, i dont think i would have that kind of relationship. I’m scared to fall inlove with someone now. I’m scared to be in a relationship now. You changed me. Before, i would flirt with guys like 24/7 but now its like ’ i’m too lazy ’ I swear, you made a big impact in my life. I know that some where in our relationship before, when we broke off.. It was my fault, but you broke it off. we didn’t even atleast work it out, we both gave up. so we both lost.

Some how, i wish we were together still. i wish that never happened to us that one night. I just remember that tomorrow is our 5th month, it could’ve been our 5th month. you could’ve been my longest… but like what you said the past is the past. I still miss you somehow & i still love you. your my best that i ever had, don’t forget that please. I dont care if you hate me, i still care about you no matter what. atleast i’m keeping my words.

I’m nothing to him anymore.

I understand that i’m nothing. but can we atleast be good friend ? /;
you don’t know how much that hurts me.

(:

It feels good talking to you again on the phone ;)

Just friends. haha. its kinda awkward.

it hurts.

just by talking to you.. i miss you so much.

freskuuu:

 

I know I didn’t say sorry to you yet, but this is my sorry paragraph or whatever.

I’m sorry Devin for doing this to you. I’m done hurting you. I’m done, but I’m not done loving you. Just by saying” I’m done” it hurts, but I have to do this for you because I rather see yourself happy…

freskuuu:

holycow, this makes me frken cry );

 I was thinking of calling devin on his cellphone for some odd reason I dont even know why. I keep telling myself that I’m down to call devin. I just wanted to talk to him again or maybe i’m just missing him again -_-’ but yeah When his phone started to ring, I hunged up so fast that i’m thinking its the wrong thing to do. I’m not down… then he called back few mintues later. I was scared to answer the phone. I wanted to ignore the call, but i couldn’t. So i had to answer it… Him: You called? Me: Uhm, yeahh.. Him: yeah? Me: Nothing. Him: Okay Me: Okay, bye. I’m kinda happy that i heard your voice again even though its just few seconds, thank you :)

Listen to this song <3

honestly,

The memories that we have is holding me back. thats the reason why i can’t move on.
I dont want to hurt you anymore! I need to move on, but something is telling me to go.. Its not the right time, i have too. ugh, fuck. I dont even know what im typing Lol.

Ugh, it hurts!! ><
K: Why'd yu smoke?
D: why?
K: I care.
D: i want to
K: because?
D: i wanted to get things off my mindK:& then what did yu get?D:why ?K:because i care xDD: Kay i got in trouble.. K:and then whats gna happen?D:im supossed to go paceK:but?D:my auntie talked to the principal bcuz their friendsK:lucky huh
D: whatever
K: I'm just saying. Are you okay though?
D: im fineK:Why fine?D:because im fine just fine dont worry about itK:but i have toooooooo (:K:So like.. i dont know what im feeling but my heart is always hurting.. are you feeling the same way?
D: me 2
K: Just by thinking abt you my heart starts hurting. even just by talking to you makes me cry. frk!
D: Then don't talk to me. I dont want you crying.
K: but its gna hurt more? no no no no . its okay
D: idk i dont want you crying thats all
K: why
D: i just dont
K: man.. why do you have to be so nice?
D: so then what you dont like me nice you dont like me mean what do yu expect from me
K: i dont know
D: Neither do i
K: man lots of things are running through my mind. i dont even know who i am anymore.
D: me 2
K: kay, honestly. I want to be with you again, but i dont want to hurt you anymore.Its best to move on, but then at the same time i dont want too.I want too move on, but i just can't.D:Me too Honestly
K: MAN WHY DOES IT HAVE TO B COMPLICATED!!
D: your just making it hard
K: whoa sorry then xD i just need help over here.
D: idk
K: you giving up too?
D: idk idk idk
K: me too. you still love me?
D: of course
K: why
D: nvm then i don't i take it back
K: im just saying
D: because your my best realationship, your amazing. your weird i love that about you. idk klarissa i just idk i cant think straight
K: same here
D: ok
K: maybe yur right.. maybe we should stop talking. and lets see whos going to miss each other first (:AHAHAH
D: I'm already missing you.
K: Psh..
D: your gonna win this one im real..
K: but devin, think about it.
D: i been thinking abt it
k: What i been doing to you, its wrong. I hurt you too much.
D: whats a relationship with out pain..
K: but i dont so many things wrong!!
D: strangers
D: iDk klarissa I just dont know ><
K: mhmm. i miss you though. see we both lost
D: i guess..yu know right now im fckn tearing
K: dont cry!! be a man (: